Why did no one warn me

I feel so unprepared for the emotions that hit me today.

As i packed away her highchair, bagged up baby bibs she no longer wears, i realised that they were the last of her "baby" items i was holding onto. And the fact that she no longer needed them, it hit me that she is no longer a baby and an actual child!

My girl is turning 2 next week. I didn't know that this would make me emotional. It really did though. I know she has been becoming this independent little person for a while now, but lately i look at her and i wonder where the time has gone.

She dresses herself, she washes herself, she helps make her own food and gets her own snacks. The sentences are coming strong and long, and she asks for things like me to read a story, to play upstairs, for a drink or to go to sleep. She asks me questions like "where's daddy" "go outside?" "whats this?". She tidies up her toys when she is finished. We don't take the pram everywhere any more and she walks well beside me (with reins).

I am truly amazed by her every single day, but at the same time i miss that little baby that needed me.

I don't remember being this emotional about her turning one. I feel like that was a more happy and milestone type of thing compared to this. The only other time i felt this way was when i swapped her vests with poppers out for normal vests, and packed away her changing bag and brought her little knickers.

I couldn't be prouder of her, but i just didn't expect to feel the emotions i have been dealing with today.

Is this going to be it from now on? Will i feel this way at every birthday?

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